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The extraordinarily short version is that I don't in fact think I am a bad person and I feel harassed. Another update in a second.

I saw the below image on an LGBTQIA forum last night. Wow. I am not exactly surprised, I've been seeing this coming for 8ish years. But under circumstances like these, is it any wonder that I am terrified of being killed by torture in the night by a stranger, or being denied medical care or even harmed by doctors, or going to the hospital and being sent to the wrong unit, then treated for things I did not go there to be treated for, or arrested for nonsense reasons, or fired for nonsense reasons. In fact, some of these things have actually happened, or close to happened, without going into details. My family has done quite a bit to make it safer for me, and so has the democratic party in Minnesota, but even so, it is rough going. I actually found LSU to be extremely helpful and welcoming between 2014-2017 as well, although Baton Rouge is kind of a mixed bag. I have literally been told over and over on the internet, that trans people should be eradicated, that being trans or gay is equivalent to being a pedophile (I assure you it is not). With people threatening like this, my life is in danger all the time. When things happen on the news, I am scared of being framed, but I am also scared of being assaulted or harmed. 

The text below reads

"...only calling for the death penalty and suicide for the actual sodomites (homosexuals). The Bible teaches that those people are worthy of death. They are supposed to be executed by the government. We are not to take the law into our own hands." Sure Foundation Baptist Church Indianapolis. Below that, on the scroll line of the TV, "CHURCH CALLS FOR LGBTQ+ MEMBERS TO DIE BY SUICIDE"

I personally am a very private person, and rarely leave home, spending most of my life on the internet. This is necessary due to seizures, but it is also my personal inclination. I don't drink, do drugs, gamble, smoke, even dance these days although dancing on Guild Wars 2 with my partner was a lot of fun a few years ago and I have had a good time line dancing on cruises, I don't have tattoos or piercings, dye my hair, wear makeup, I guess I have some kind of brightly colored graphic tshirts. I rarely even wear shorts rather than pants. Nobody around here litters, we recycle. I suppose I could exercise more, and I do drink a lot of coffee and eat a lot of sugar. I keep my prescribed medications, sorted, in a medication cabinet, with a locked bag inside, in organizers elaborately labelled inside of that. It takes me an hour to put my pills in my organizer each week. I recognize that organizational skills are a thing I need to work on, and that I need a better schedule and to clean around the house more.

I have volunteered in the past doing the same sort of teaching things that I currently do for pay, and perhaps that is why it pays so badly. 

My hobbies are video gaming and, a while ago, board gaming. I like to read especially textbooks though I rarely get around to it. I watch cooking and art reality TV shows, and sci fi and fantasy, with my parents or partner. I am trying super hard to get back to doing a physics or astronomy or data science programming project for fun after having finished this deep learning project and look for a career-oriented higher-paying job that puts my skills, training, and credentials to better use. I HAVE A JOB THAT IS MEANINGFUL AND THAT I LOVE, AS A TUTOR IN PHYSICS AND CALCULUS. I also help take care of my sister's kids, though I am never the primary care giver and don't take care of them alone because of seizures. I live with my parents because of disability and love spending time with them. I AM A SUPER BORING PERSON BY A LOT OF PEOPLES STANDARDS.